It’s more painful to not see her at all actually…
And I promised i’d be the one person that wouldnt leave her ever for any reason and I’m planning on keeping that promise…
I love her and will give all I have, I didn’t love her for loving me back, I loved her for who she is… Makes no difference to that if she feels for me or not…
Seems to me that you’re letting her use you as a “comfort tool,” much like many of my friends try to do with me =/
The thing is though, it is apparently worse for you to keep seeing her, as this is what it’s doing to you. Sometimes you have to break your promises for yourself. If she’s telling you she loves you yet she is with someone else with the intention of not breaking up and getting with you, then that’s really quite evil, considering the fact that she knows how you feel.
I never said that she says she loves me “that” way, in fact I wrote she said it’s NOT that way. And I’m not staying in hopes she’ll someday want to be with me since like I said she’s made clear that’s not gonna happen.
I’m staying cos not seeing her at all hurts more than seeing her as a friend. And cos I promised and don’t intend to break that promise. And I do love her more than myself so I’m not going to break that promise “for myself”… And cos whether she loves me or not I want to offer everything I can to her, my earlier post focused on hurting cos she doesn’t seem to care so much anymore even tho she claims she does want me close to her still as a friend.
I’ve had relationships before, I’ve been hurt before and I know how ppl think when they hear things similar to what I’m describing but to me this time was different, it was more than having a crush, more than just being in love… The way I feel now it’s either her or noone to me, noone compares and noone interests me and noone in these months has made me think of getting anything going on even for a second…
And no, I’m not obsessed or anything, I’m just desperate, I would never do anything to hurt her and the worst I’ve done is ask too many questions that I perhaps shouldn’t have… But, well I don’t think anyone in my situation would have managed to do otherwise, I still feel like that so I still get jelous and envious about things…
Other stuff not related to her that happened lately:
My gay friend which I mentioned earlier and is about my age (21) is also apparently dating a 16year old boy. Fun thing to know too.
To top this all off, I think my parents are divorcing and my father is a very “oldschool” kind of guy and he has apparently stated that he’ll suicide if that starts to happen cos of his “promise that only death will separate” them, fun.
Anyone wanna trade lives?
You know, I actually thought about it for a second, but I already promised Shadow we’d switch when we’re both 21.
Fuck, we promised that? I kinda have something I don’t want to lose right now Arc 
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Kim is the best.
Is that relevant? :anjou_embarassed:
Seriously, I would stay with this girl forever if I could. That’s how much I love her. 
I’ve been reading through the thread - some of my responses to some stuff I’ve seen.
(This is my weekly TWotA jibber-jabber allowance.)
I’d have to agree. Not from personal experience, but from my own not-as-distorted-as-some-people-make-out moral viewpoint.
I’m an idiot, but I know not to get uncontrollably drunk.
How does that map out? 
[quote=“Arcie”]Of course, mine’s the most successful of all.
“Hi.”[/quote]
Yeah… although I’ve never chatted up a girl before (I didn’t feel like it; now I don’t want/hopefully won’t need to), I find chat-up lines really damn cheesy! 
I dunno… I’ve never been a person to chase girls, or even be confident with them. I get annoyed and also worried about people I know from school who just throw themselves around like it’s a sport of some kind - I wonder how seriously they can take a deep relationship when it comes down to it?
I’ve found that simply speaking to a lady in a respectful tone and engaging them in genuine conversation is the best way to start off. Because, if the lady simply doesn’t respond, she’s either a) not the kind of girl you’re looking for, b) not interested in you anyway :anjou_embarassed:
Though, I have to admit, it’s been a while since I’ve been in the market… been with my current gf (fiance, really) for 7 years 
Doesn’t stop one from sharing a few drinks with the occasional pretty lady, though! :anjou_embarassed:
There are a lot of, how shall we say it, skanks around my area. 
So they’re not the kind of people you can or want to get close to - besides, they think it is cool to have twenty million sexual partners or some obscure number like that.
Sorry to sound harsh but it is true - and I’ve been wanting to let off some steam! :anjou_embarassed:
I’m not like that. I’m more of a soppy person! Besides, I’m not one to follow the crowd and I tend to keep myself to myself. I’d be a one girl person for the rest of my life if I had my way!
wow, I said that? :anjou_embarassed:
And I thought my memory was crap!
Talk about a bump. Last I looked, this was on the very last page of the forum…
:anjou_embarassed:
Well, I’m doing my bit for the recycling effort! But sorry if that was a daft thing to do. It made more sense to me than making a new topic, though - I didn’t have enough to say for that!
Anyway, Gehn started it… 
Recycling is for newbs.
Who actually post here occasionally…
[quote=“Ancient Weapon”]bump
Kim is the best.
Is that relevant? :anjou_embarassed:
Seriously, I would stay with this girl forever if I could. That’s how much I love her. [/quote]
Yeah, it always goes like that until they screw you over.
past experience?
Then again, I don’t think i would mind being screwed over XD
My advise : go with he flow but don’t let the flow go you.
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[quote=“Ancient Weapon”]bump
Kim is the best.
Is that relevant? :anjou_embarassed:
Seriously, I would stay with this girl forever if I could. That’s how much I love her. [/quote]
Yeah, it always goes like that until they screw you over.[/quote]
Thanks - like my lack of confidence and general negativity aren’t bad enough already.